the backache caused by the fall is still so painful that i can barely bend my body... had quite a blurry but scary dream last night... I dreamed tat i'm paralysed and cannot move both my legs anymore... wat happens if tomorrow when i wake up and i realise i cannot walk anymore? IT'S SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO PAINFULLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL........ the story tells us that we shouldn't be a bitch... this is the punishment u will receive for being a bitch... I'M A BITCH....

I learnt something from this.. I'll never tell anything anymore... There's no such thing as secret in this world. Start to feel that there's nothing in this world that can be kept. Maybe it's my fault. I shouldn't have said so much at the first place... Just dont wish this to involve more n more innocent parties anymore.. Just stop it alright... I wished i'm dumb and deaf sometimes, so that i wont need to hear and say so much things...

super bad day! things are happening.. i had a great fall when i came out from the toilet... super painful butt + super painful toe (somemore at the same place where the old injury is still unhealed) = super unlucky me! maybe i'm a bitch who's done a lot of bad things and this is wat i get from being a bad person

missing the old friends

miao miao, always dont get the chance to take a proper picture with him haha!

shuai shuai aka haisan...

dong chiang lin, on the day he left for australia

the sweet couple and woarn + pei

chinese new year 2008 gathering at pei's

jeremy, at the airport...

kevin ng, the friend who's always free to entertain me when i'm back in miri...

pei, the bao zi...

loiz, one friend that accompanies me a lot all the time...

siang. my gambling kaki...

and also chen, but aiks, this guy never wanna take picture so i dun have any picture with him...

of course. i wouldn't forget sen, bing, betty, my bao zi ping and also chaw....

miss u all so much :)

心情很乱很糟。。。我怎么了。。 things don't seem to go the way i want.. maybe am just thinking too much... :) 我好想他。I try and tell myself it's time i changed the way i love him but it's really hard. I'll try... I try my best...

and the story continues....

Maybe this separation is a good start for us, at least we cherish each other more. Let's just give both of us another chance to proof our love. I'll try and change, i hope u will too.. 2 and a half year isn't a short period. If we can pass this, nothing else can separate us anymore. We must hold on tight and pass this test together. Though the journey will be tough i have faith. I know we can make it.

I'm lucky to have you. Life is really hard without you but you make me love you more each day. Yea, we quarrel all the time but i take this as a way we communicate. I was so happy i decided to go meet u up. Else things wouldn't have been solved. Maybe the same thing will happen again and again but i have faith in you. I have faith in myself. We will get through this. I wish our love will blossom more and more each day.

Promise me you will wait for me. I LOVE YOU...

Starting to miss you again....

i've been having the same dreams for consecutive 3 days, but when i wake up i realise they are all dreams only... disappointed, i know they are fake and it's not going to happen anyway..... a super big thank you to kangwei and minmin for bringing me to the vet today... though i cant get them cured, i still wanna thank u guys for your help... my very first dinner at william and it'll be the last.. the food thr are damn expensive!!!!!!!!!

am bringing my sons to the vet this sunday... hope it can really be cured and recover soon... heartache when i see them cannot even eat properly... plz, bear for a few days, weewee n xiaowee...

i'll get u two cured no matter how much it costs me...

i'm gonna turn u back into this cute size, xiaowee..

weewee.... i hope i can hold u like this again very soon... both of u must be strong...

and thankyou kangwei for helping me...

these few days have been very very bad for me... my gerbils are dying, they're having tumors on different part of their bodies.... not rich enough for them to get cured... how? i hate irresponsible persons!!!!!!!! i'm becoming uglier and uglier..... argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

累了，死了，故事结束了。。。