countdown 69 days

It's getting nearer and nearer to the day when we will be separated.... Really dont know how am i going to face this when it really comes... hate myself, for i'm so useless and can only cry whenever i think bout this... sigh...

Papa n Mommy

Been doing a lot of thinking lately... Am glad, though i'm not as rich as many of you out there, i have a sweet and prosperous family. My dad and mum who although quarrel often but still love us a lot.. and also siblings who are close to each other... Nothing's more important than being together with your family.. I hate myself for being so naive last time and keep blaming my parents for not being able to bring us traveling, not being able to send us out to study overseas. Sorry, papa and mummy, i know u're the greatest... I know both of u have been working hard to earn to support the family and our studies in KL. I promise, one day when i succeed, I will never forget about you. I love you, Mommy and PaPa, forever....

心很痛，但眼泪早已干涸。。。 一些永远无法解决的问题，是不是就不应该这么执著去找出答案？ 也许，不懂得越多，生活就会快乐一些。 也许，不懂得越多，就不会这么痛苦。 但是，一旦知道了，却怎么也问不出一个答案，心却会加倍的疼痛。。。 为什么有些人的爱，这么的坚强；而有些人的，却经不起一点点地风吹雨打？

i cant really explain my feelings here, but, i know something is not right... maybe the time left is really little and maybe it'll just end in the next second... it is really hard to tolerate with another person, without demanding anything.. what everyone wants is different.. we will never understand and completely fulfill the other person's need.......

there are things that outsiders will never understand... so don't ever judge my love for me, i know what i want and what i can take... when i cannot take it anymore, i know what to do.. but now, just let me enjoy the sweet moment ok... different people have different perception about what one should and should not do. but plz, just let me make decisions myself. at least i wont regret with what I've chosen...

抢救爱情大作战，成功！！ i know, many ppl will be scolding me but as long as i'm happy, who cares, rite? hehe... glad that we're as close as before AGAIN... though i know the problem is still thr unsolved, but i just wanna be with him, no matter what... we've been through a lot that other ppl will never understand, so i cherish this relationship a lot... anyway, thank u all for helping me through this... i'll take care of myself and we'll be sweet... :)

Bad feelings

Started to worry bout things which is going to happen in two months' time. How'd my life be two months in the future? Actually, i couldn't bear to start imagine how life is going to be without him.. The past one year, i saw him even more than mummy saw me, and after graduate from diploma, we'll be separated. Can i still lead my life like normal? Or will i just miss him too much that i cant even concentrate with my studies here? Frens have been advising me that i get more frens to hang out with, so that i can prepare myself to start a life without him being able to be by my side all the time. ARGH!