Showing posts with label bad day bad thoughts. Show all posts
Showing posts with label bad day bad thoughts. Show all posts
it's monday. went to school for lecture but it only last for 40 mins, with the lecturer talking crap in front of the lecturer hall. came back from college and i'm all alone again. i'm hoping i could sell my furniture set asap and move to a small room soon. and i'm almost broke. i need money badly... :(
life sucks
it's my first night here, alone in kl. i doubt if i could survive this. i cant go back to miri and stop studying, i know. but i cant live here alone either.
being alone here, all by myself aint easy at all. the first thing i need to do is to find a small room and move. 500 bucks per month for one master bedroom is too kick for mum. but who's there to help me move all those heavy furniture. and now here comes another problem. i've got 2 sets of bed racks, desks and wardrobe. i need to find someone and sell it off. but putting up notices at the notice board downstairs is going to cost me 5 bucks per week. if there's no one out there who's willing to buy my furniture, i'm gonna lose that 5 bucks * n weeks! and that adds up to a lot of money.
everything needs money! damn! if i were rich, maybe all these aren't problems at all. i can just fly back to miri whenever i want, live inside this master room all by myself without the need to worry about the rentals, throw away the furniture and my problems are now all gone. but dreams will never come true.
goodnite.
好心没好报，狼心当狗吠.
dont wanna care anymore, since nothing is gonna change and no one cares about it. to u, u and u. bye.
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felt like leaving everything behind and fly away to my own paradise and enjoy myself...
?
is it too stupid holding on to something that u might not get? no promises that u'll get it. will u still strive for it? or will u just give up?
eXaMsSsssssSssSs!!!!!!!
- 4/9/2008 DM ----> GG
- 10/9/2008 English ----> not yet started studying
- 11/9/2008 MIS ----> well, not so GG yet...
- 13/9/2008 AFA ----> done studying but gonna GG also
- 17/9/2008 Audit ----> last paper, and i'll be free!!!!!!
i'm going crazy soon... i need care n jokes, plz....
i think i'm gonna fail my paper for the very first time in my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! super disappointed with myself, i studied for this stupid sunject for so many days and yet when i got into the exam hall, when i flip to see the paper, i know i'm gonna fail. none, i mean NONE of the question, i have a totally confirm answer to it...
DECISION MANAGEMENT, I HATE U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
我发现，原来我并不孤单。。。朋友们的关心，让我原本被扰乱了的思绪，变得平静。。。想哭泣时，原以为没有人会愿意聆听，但原来我错了，一些不常见面的朋友，一封信息，温暖了我的心。。。别担心，我好起来了。。。现在的我，依然很努力地爱着他，过程当然有喜有悲，但我愿意等待，等待着美好将来。。。我会好好的，谢谢。。。
haven't been in a good mood lately... actually even i myself also doubt if i'm crazy... nothing happen and yet mood swing so often till i start hating myself...
我知道没有人愿意天天听我诉苦，我真得很烦，我快撑不下去了。我已经很努力不乱发脾气了，可是，你怎么就仗着只要我一发脾气就要跟我分手，就让我什么都听你的？我们不可能天天见面，但为什么连说话的基本沟通时间都不给我？
再这样下去，我们两个迟早变成陌生人。你从不告诉我你周遭发生了什么事，你要我怎样了解你多一点呢？当我跟你说话时，你好像从来都没有在认真听我说。人家说远距离恋爱靠的是相信和沟通，可是你却让我觉得你在敷衍我。我真的很难过。我以为上一次的事情过后你会更加珍惜这段感情，但我为什么觉得你总是对它爱理不理呢？
it's getting harder and harder... the bond in between is getting weaker... i tried hard but i dun see the other party's effort... life is hard... everything has been so hard
我不停地叫自己放开手，给大家多一点空间，但我真的很难做到。。。 真的很不能适应看不到你的日子。。。我的不安全感回来了。。。我真的很难放开手，很难。。。 我知道我很自私，但是，没有你在身边的日子，你似乎多了很多朋友，多了很多很多的计划，但都不包括我。。。我是自私精！！！
why are you making my life so difficult????????????
i keep telling myself to forget bout you but i keep dreaming bout you every night... and when i wake up, i disappoint myself again and again... i know everything is not real, everything was not real even since 3 years ago..
wow, i'm so impressed with what u did... u're really an expert in this!!! how the heck do u do all these? how long have u been practising? or u're just naturally that kind of person? i'm awake now.. totally AWAKE...
某一天，醒过来， 发现爱， 不见了。。。
最近在看 '这里发现爱'...
他和她去旅行，他们一起拍照，留下许多珍贵的幸福记忆...
喝醉了，两人深情相吻...
她做便当给他吃，他手里握着便当盒，紧紧地抱着她...
她要倒水给他，他抓着她的手，深怕她离开...
好久没有看到这么令人感动的幸福画面.
从前的我，比电视剧里的男女主角更幸福，现在，这些画面已不复重现...
the backache caused by the fall is still so painful that i can barely bend my body... had quite a blurry but scary dream last night... I dreamed tat i'm paralysed and cannot move both my legs anymore... wat happens if tomorrow when i wake up and i realise i cannot walk anymore?
IT'S SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO PAINFULLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL........ the story tells us that we shouldn't be a bitch... this is the punishment u will receive for being a bitch... I'M A BITCH....
