emo emo emo... been very very emo these few days... guess i just cannot get used to the life here. i need companion badly. never felt so lonely in my whole life. i know i'm bringing troubles to ppl these few days, complaining bout life here... sorry but i just cant help it. sorry bee for crying all the times, sorry chen and xiaoyu for all those complaints poured on u. dont worry bout me. i'll be okay soon. but still, :'(

it hurts, it really does. those words will never be forgotten, never.

Restaurant Bavaria @ 6 May 2009

french bread topped with cheese, tomato slices and onion. so expensive that it cost us 8 bucks for these 2 tiny slices of bread.

my beef stew. simon suggested that i have it with rice but i chose mashed potatoes instead.

it's monday. went to school for lecture but it only last for 40 mins, with the lecturer talking crap in front of the lecturer hall. came back from college and i'm all alone again. i'm hoping i could sell my furniture set asap and move to a small room soon. and i'm almost broke. i need money badly... :(

life sucks

it's my first night here, alone in kl. i doubt if i could survive this. i cant go back to miri and stop studying, i know. but i cant live here alone either. being alone here, all by myself aint easy at all. the first thing i need to do is to find a small room and move. 500 bucks per month for one master bedroom is too kick for mum. but who's there to help me move all those heavy furniture. and now here comes another problem. i've got 2 sets of bed racks, desks and wardrobe. i need to find someone and sell it off. but putting up notices at the notice board downstairs is going to cost me 5 bucks per week. if there's no one out there who's willing to buy my furniture, i'm gonna lose that 5 bucks * n weeks! and that adds up to a lot of money. everything needs money! damn! if i were rich, maybe all these aren't problems at all. i can just fly back to miri whenever i want, live inside this master room all by myself without the need to worry about the rentals, throw away the furniture and my problems are now all gone. but dreams will never come true. goodnite.