A L O N E . . .

I hate to be alone. Loneliness is a scary monster that eats u up bits by bits. I hate to cook for myself, eating every meal with no one but myself. I hate to order pizza and eat it alone on my birthday when every one has a surprise on theirs. I hate to be alone at home. When i feel like going out for a walk and i couldn't think of anyone who can go with me. When i hold my phone, scrolling down the phone book and realize that there is no one i could call. I hate being alone at night when it rains so heavily, the wind blows so strongly that it wakes me up from my sleep. I hate it. I miss home, badly.