thinking bout....

been thinking bout the same thing lately.. a girl friend asked me, u hate tat person so much yet u observe his/her everything so closely that any changes tat he/she makes, u'll be the first to notice it.. why? i've been thinking bout wat she said but i still cant get the answer... she suggests maybe i still, very much wish to befriend that person... but i argued that that person has hurt me too much tat i will nvr wanna be close with him/her anymore... can anyone tell me why? argh!! another sleepless night....