如果明天的路你不知道该怎么走，留在我身边做我老婆好吗?
why does bad things come again and again! why on earth do i have to live this kind of life! lady luck, where are you? show urself, please.....
13 DEC 2009 - 19 DEC 2009
it's been quite a busy week last week, with all the assignments and test coming to me all at the same time that i can barely breathe. imagine staying at friend's place until 3am on a saturday night to do assignments while every one in the world is having fun elsewhere!
loi was here to surprise jean on her 21st bday. loi, u know u are making me feeling so un-xing fu! lol. i'm so guilty about this because i made him walking alone at klcc for 6 hours because of the stupid FRCI test! i'm sorry, loi. but blame the stupid lecturer plz. he wanted us to die! i've never seen any one worse than him, i swear!
loi, i have to admit that u're a romantic guy, despite all those bad words that u use to scold me and jean. haha. he had a 2-1 policy ba... one present every two hours through lucky draws ba! hai bu li hai, this kid... anyway, thanks for inviting me out on thursday. :) hope to see u soon, man. and jean, happy 21st bday in advance.
and next week's xmas week! hopefully the xmas dinner will still be on, cause it seems no one's talking about that... and i haven't bought any xmas pressie! and i haven't have any thing in my mind yet.. what's the best present that suits both guy and lady?
well, that's all about my busy week. till then..
hello, buddies!
haven't been updating my blog for quite a while. been doing nothing lately. just went for a short trip to genting with friends a few weeks ago and won 30 bucks in the casino thanks to meiyee. :) and then went for 2012 today. it's nice and it makes me so scared to death suddenly. Life's so short man. couldn't imagine what i'd be like in 2012. i wish i could hug the one i love when i die on 21-12-2012. haha! hopefully the apocalypse doesn't come so early lar... LOL
A L O N E . . .
I hate to be alone.
Loneliness is a scary monster that eats u up bits by bits.
I hate to cook for myself, eating every meal with no one but myself.
I hate to order pizza and eat it alone on my birthday when every one has a surprise on theirs.
I hate to be alone at home.
When i feel like going out for a walk and i couldn't think of anyone who can go with me.
When i hold my phone, scrolling down the phone book and realize that there is no one i could call.
I hate being alone at night when it rains so heavily, the wind blows so strongly that it wakes me up from my sleep.
I hate it.
I miss home, badly.
一个人
突然觉得。。。
其实，在世界上，每一个人只是另一个人的过客。
没有说谁没有了谁，就会活不下去。
朋友 or 男女朋友，好像真的只是互相利用的工具。
当一个人对你说，i'll be there, no matter what. 真的是一个很大很大的承诺。
但，又有谁真的可以做到呢？
我想，每一个人都是自私的吧。
当你的利益和他的利益互相冲突时，又有谁会真的愿意放弃自己的利益，帮你达成你的愿望呢？
或许每个人都是一样的，只是程度上的不同而已。
寂寞真的很可怕，可怕到无法想象。
夜深人静时，当你无意间想起鬼片里的某些情节而无法入睡， 想打电话，却知道没有人会从睡梦中醒来陪你聊天，感觉真的很不好。
长大了，好像真的应该学习独立。
因为到最后，你都只会是一个人。
其实，在世界上，每一个人只是另一个人的过客。
没有说谁没有了谁，就会活不下去。
朋友 or 男女朋友，好像真的只是互相利用的工具。
当一个人对你说，i'll be there, no matter what. 真的是一个很大很大的承诺。
但，又有谁真的可以做到呢？
我想，每一个人都是自私的吧。
当你的利益和他的利益互相冲突时，又有谁会真的愿意放弃自己的利益，帮你达成你的愿望呢？
或许每个人都是一样的，只是程度上的不同而已。
寂寞真的很可怕，可怕到无法想象。
夜深人静时，当你无意间想起鬼片里的某些情节而无法入睡， 想打电话，却知道没有人会从睡梦中醒来陪你聊天，感觉真的很不好。
长大了，好像真的应该学习独立。
因为到最后，你都只会是一个人。
recently, i've been....
i granted myself a 10 days study leave from 23 august till 1 sept and went back to miri. managed to have lunch with vin the worm bro on his bday on 25 aug. but i'm sorry this caused a big fight btw him and his ahem.
anyway, we had lunch at citrus and these are what we had.
vin's was some kind of cheese baked rice and mine was lamb chop.
anyway, we had lunch at citrus and these are what we had.
vin's was some kind of cheese baked rice and mine was lamb chop.
notice the small ball ball? it was made out of potato and it was in a shape of a pear. it tasted yummy. :)
and i've straightened my hair and cut my fringe short too.
before
after 
after my exam, i went back to miri again for a 3 weeks holiday. during the semester break, i got myself a job that is to give tuition to rebecca. managed to earn some pocket money. wahaha! didn't hang out much with chyuan cause he's got something else more important to do now. :P but we still managed to go out for a drink on each saturday. we've found a new hobby. and lin, i'm sure u're gonna love it. come back soon and join us! and because the holiday was a lil bit too long, and my friends who are busy with their own stuff, i dragged my bro and sis out for supper some nights. the re was one night when we went to marina sea horse and had a drink there. it was nice, except for the mosquitoes.
and now i'm back in kl again. hopefully this semester will be an interesting one, filled with short trips and shoppings la..
R.I.P. weewee 19.08.2009
weewee is found dead this morning in his cage. Maybe it's a release from the sufferings all these while. rest in peace, weewee.
my updated wishlist, though not gonna get any of it soon, but noone says we cant dream of it right?
- a nice sharp-coloured sundress
- perfume
- any black-strapped elegant watch
- rings
- some nice t shirts for college
- a pair of black shorts which the colour will never come off no matter how often i wash
- colourful tops to brighten up my wardrobe
- a nice pair of jeans that tighten and push up my gigantic butts
- a manicure + peducure - just out of curiosity cause i've never tried it in my life
- nice shoes, covered, high heels, flats bla bla bla....
- an airticket to Taiwan
- more money
- friendship
- love
- luckssssssssssssssssss for my coming final exam, starting on 4 sept.
I'm gonna stop dreaming and go get some sleep.
Goodnite pals.
It feels bad. it really feels bad. i hope i'd never need to do that and have that feeling anymore. Not anymore, i promise. i hate that. when i see it in the movie, i thought they were just acting it out and the feeling wasn't that 'over' as how they acted. But it really wasn't a good feeling. I wanna work hard with both my own hands. I will!
起伏不定的心情，竟然把美好的星期天，搞的乌云密布。。。
自己的太多愁善感，太爱幻想着不可能再发生的事，
常常把自己逼入死巷。
失去方向的小鸟，
已经回不去纯真的年代。
黑夜，
请把我带走。
带我进入梦乡，
让我遨游在宽广无边的大地，
让我在没有烦恼，没有恨，没有心痛的地方，
自由自在的飞翔！
hi guys, this is my new layout.. how is it? too girly for a girl like me? haha.. i think so too but i guess pink brings happiness and a sense of romance?
i learning to widen it but i totally have no idea how to do it... can somebody help me?
nothing much to blog about lately. i dont go shopping, seldom go out so nothing much to write.
oh ya!!!! i regretted for buying that CK bag too early. gg called and tell me that robinsons was having its first ever member sales and it's 40% off the original price.. when i bought it was only 30%! and the mphosis slippers tooo.... omg. it's 30% off! i bought it at its original price 2 weeks ago...
life's been good to me lately, i think. nothing much happen but mood swings doesn't come that often anymore.. :) a good sign i guess.. may all of u have great days every day too..
things doesn't seem to go the way i like lately. financial problems, getting emo and mood swings almost everyday. how do i stop all these? i want a new life but why is it so hard? shall i go out to work now? haih.... life's hard for me. why does all these happen on me? i cant take it anymore. i need a shoulder. :(
sorry to my readers. my blog sound sad lately. i'm not trying to beg for sympathy, i just need a place to complain and grumble. sorry if i made any one of u feel uncomfortable.
i need a new life
i'm gonna start by loving myself more and treating myself nicely. wish me luck pals. i'll be fine. no worries.
i think i've probably gone crazy dy. i became a shopaholic since god knows when. and i buy even though i'm poor now. i think there really is something wrong with me. 2 bags within one week's time. a pair of slippers. a dress that i'd wear for maybe only twice or thrice a year. and the wishlist goes on and on. am i crazy? or something in my brain has triggered the shopping nerves. i dont know. i think i'm just mad.
i need:
- a nice wallet
- black mphorsis slippers
- a zara blue sun dress
- navy blue or grey cardigan
- flower printed top
- a jeans vest
- a big party
- hugs
- love
- friends
- lots and lots of luck
- to keep fit
- to go home.
人一生只谈一次恋爱或许才是最好的。
因为经历多了， 会麻木；
分离多了，会习惯；
换恋人多了，会比较。
到最后你不会再相信爱情，你会自暴自弃。
正在恋爱的人，请珍惜吧！
不要认为后面还有更好的；
不要认为还年轻可以晚些结婚, 因为爱情是不等年龄的；
不要因为对方不富裕而放弃，只要不是无能的人，勤劳可以让你们富裕的；
不要因为父母反对而放弃，你会发现因为这个原因而放弃爱情，将是一生的悔恨.
其实对于爱情越单纯，就会越幸福。
got this meaningful message from a friend this morning.. post it up to share with u all.. :)
要幸福哦！
原来一直以来，我都是一个人在自编自导自演着我以为可以演很久的长篇连续剧。我以为的主角，只像是木偶，任由我摆布，感情并没有随着我自以为越演越烈的剧情，而变得精彩，丰富。这出连续剧，因为主角们的方向越来越分歧，对故事的看法，自然而然也变得不一样，终于再也演不下去了。连续剧终究要有个结局，才算得上是一部会令人怀念，记在心里的好戏。所以，不要因为一部剧的结束而感到难过，因为，回忆才是能陪伴你一辈子的。。。 风筝扯得太紧一样会断线。它是属于天空的，自由才是风筝所追求的理想，不会因为一缕线而停止飞翔。。。。。
Marry a Chartered Accountant?
I have a professional woman as my wife, a Chartered Accountant. She uses LIFO method while taking out the refrigerated food.
She thinks I am not good in numbers. Fine with me, for now she handles the budget of the house. Initially she used to send me a bill at the month end, but when I told her that I am not her client but her husband, she now ask for the money in advance. The expenses had been rising steadily over the months, so one day I snooped into the papers maintained in a current file. No wonder! She was charging mileage and overtime to the house budget. She is crazy! I tell her but she corrects me. No honey, I am the auditor. I fail to see the light.
Every scrap of the paper in our house is filed. She tells me as per some Ordinance she must keep a copy of every thing for at least ten years before destroying it. I am worried.
The other day we had an hour-long fight. Later, I got to know that she had charged that hour to a client of hers, in the time sheet. My time was put down as unoccupied.She says that she loves me and I tell her that I love her too. However, she never believes me. She says that there is susceptibility of it being a misstatement. Duh! She wants my representation on this!
Last year our house accounts got a qualified opinion I had not kept the supporting etc. of my purchases. Not a long time back my brother's wedding was to be solemnized. Wedding cards had been sent. After some time I started receiving a steady trickle of letters. I was puzzled until my wife explained that external evidence was more reliable. She had called for confirmations from all those to whom cards were sent.
When she cooks, my wife at times does not go by recipe. Where the recipe says add half-teaspoon vinegar, one tsp black salt or one teacup of water, she ignores them. She says that they are not material when taken in context of whole meal being prepared. She is crazy, I tell you.
Surprisingly everybody calls her an auditor, instead. I checked the dictionary and it did not state that auditor is a synonym for crazy. The dictionary must be outdated.When we got married, she had given me an Engagement Letter and I had said how cute-how sweet. Now she gives it to me every year saying that her standards state that it must be sent anew if there is any indication that I have misunderstood the objective and scope of engagement. Huh! Apart from sending me the engagement letter once again she says I can't get rid of her just like that. She says that she has the right of being heard before I appoint some one else.Phew! For a minute, I thought that we had jeopardized our going concern status. Duh! Dare I say so??
I am told by one of my female colleagues who is married to a CA that the scenario is even worse when the guy is a CA. Apparently he capitalized the wedding expenses as preliminary expenses and is writing it off every year. Also the time he spent dating his wife before marrying her is still under consideration for valuation... valuation of intangible assets.So guys please think twice....
should u really marry a CA? And yes please discount it by the appropriate rate to arrive at the present value of the risk of doing so!!!!!!!
* nod nod nod nod nod * this is fun.. haha!
all these while i've been working so hard for just one thing and i thought i'll be rewarded the way i want. but it seems that i'll never get whatever i wish. contradicting directions, extreme differences. i'm tired already.
i'm not sure how long can i stand it this way. i'm not sure how do i finish this. i thought things would change to be better soon but it seems that it gets worse. i think the worse is yet to come. can i get over it? or do i just stop here.
Bistro de Nico @ krokop 10
it's a fine dining place despite the price. :(
lightings are good, nicely folded napkins, and great decoration.
one shot before the dinner arrives.
garlic bread with cheese that cost us bloody 8 bucks, if i'm not mistaken.
one shot before the dinner arrives.
garlic bread with cheese that cost us bloody 8 bucks, if i'm not mistaken.
lasagna was nice but a lil bit too cheesy for me.
their mixed grill. nice one and it's rare that we see a mix grill with prawn on it. or maybe it's rare for me only. haha.
another shot of it as it's almost 50 bucks. sorry to the wallet. aiks...
emo emo emo... been very very emo these few days... guess i just cannot get used to the life here. i need companion badly. never felt so lonely in my whole life. i know i'm bringing troubles to ppl these few days, complaining bout life here... sorry but i just cant help it. sorry bee for crying all the times, sorry chen and xiaoyu for all those complaints poured on u. dont worry bout me. i'll be okay soon. but still, :'(
Restaurant Bavaria @ 6 May 2009
french bread topped with cheese, tomato slices and onion. so expensive that it cost us 8 bucks for these 2 tiny slices of bread.
my beef stew. simon suggested that i have it with rice but i chose mashed potatoes instead.
it's monday. went to school for lecture but it only last for 40 mins, with the lecturer talking crap in front of the lecturer hall. came back from college and i'm all alone again. i'm hoping i could sell my furniture set asap and move to a small room soon. and i'm almost broke. i need money badly... :(
life sucks
it's my first night here, alone in kl. i doubt if i could survive this. i cant go back to miri and stop studying, i know. but i cant live here alone either.
being alone here, all by myself aint easy at all. the first thing i need to do is to find a small room and move. 500 bucks per month for one master bedroom is too kick for mum. but who's there to help me move all those heavy furniture. and now here comes another problem. i've got 2 sets of bed racks, desks and wardrobe. i need to find someone and sell it off. but putting up notices at the notice board downstairs is going to cost me 5 bucks per week. if there's no one out there who's willing to buy my furniture, i'm gonna lose that 5 bucks * n weeks! and that adds up to a lot of money.
everything needs money! damn! if i were rich, maybe all these aren't problems at all. i can just fly back to miri whenever i want, live inside this master room all by myself without the need to worry about the rentals, throw away the furniture and my problems are now all gone. but dreams will never come true.
goodnite.
mummy's bday @ 24.04.2009
it's mummy's bday on 24 april 2009. happy birthday. here are some pictures to be shared.
it looks like my bday yeah? that's because karson wrote in his moral folio that he was celebrating his sista's bday. and these photos are actually for his assignment. haha...
mummy and the eldest daughter of hers
the youngest bro
the couple
the family, a chai, auntie and the boyfriend
it looks like my bday yeah? that's because karson wrote in his moral folio that he was celebrating his sista's bday. and these photos are actually for his assignment. haha...
Banana Leaf Restaurant @ Centre Point
went to this banana leaf rice restaurant for lunch with simon this afternoon. A special restaurant where u dont eat with plates. Instead, banana leaf is used. Rice, veggie and papadum (some indian keropok) is served on a big banana leaf. but the thing is, everything there is SPICY! so dont try if u cant eat spicy food.... :)
papadum, bayam, potato with curry and fried bittergourd. everything is super spicy! (for me la, haha)
papadum, bayam, potato with curry and fried bittergourd. everything is super spicy! (for me la, haha)
好心没好报，狼心当狗吠.
dont wanna care anymore, since nothing is gonna change and no one cares about it. to u, u and u. bye.
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felt like leaving everything behind and fly away to my own paradise and enjoy myself...
Chili's Restaurant
it's chili's! my favourite restaurant! went there with sis and bro last night cause bro came to kl and i figured i should treat him something nice... wahaha...
monterey chicken... the most ordinary food of the night.. poor a chuan...
i love my lamb shoulder cause it's juicy and soft fresh... the mashed potato is the nicest of all mashed potato that i've tried in my whole life. the gravy was cooked with some cheese and unknown ingredients...
kerry's beef and bacon burger. too big that he couldn't finish it ba.
my fav salad! i've always like caesar salad and always wanted to try make it myself but laziness has beaten me. i never even checked online for the recipe.. haha! will try it when i go back to miri....
smile..
This week has been the greatest week of the semester....
Bee made a visit to kl so I skipped classes and went to meet him up. We had all our meals together, we watch movies and we walk along the road together, just like last time. It's been a long long time since him and I walked from the condo to the lrt, to anywhere else in kl.
He came just right in time, before i have my exam. I was exhausted studying for exams so his appearance gave me energy!! haha... 13 days later......
LeSportsac
xiaowan's got nothing to write so she decided to show off her collection... haha
she's been using the same pencil case since diploma first sem so her * partner bought her a new one as x'mas pressie. Thanks partner, she loves it a lot.
xiaowan sees ppl are collecting branded stuff, while she herself isn't rich enough to collect LV, Burberry or Prada. The only thing she can afford is this. So when she sees LeSportsac is on sale, she decided to get this mini cosmetic pouch and add in to her collection. More to come, but don't know when she's going to get her third item.
